....but give me a blowtorch and we'll talk.
Today's blog will be decidedly lacking in butterflies, unicorns and rainbows.
Sometimes life is ugly, days are long, and the only relief in sight is sweet merciful death.
It's been a long fucking day. If time has taught me anything, it's that this fucking day should have fucking ended 2 fucking weeks ago.
We all stayed up to watch Game 7 last night (GO CANUCKS WOOOOOOT)...not that I am normally in bed at 10pm on Tuesday nights.
Hubby and I also cooked and enjoyed an amazing Indian feast complete with pappadums, basil marinated onions, coriander chutney, tamarind-date chutney, prawn korma on rice, and an entire bottle of Zinfandel. Each. Nothing too strange about that given the occasion. During overtime, I gnawed my way through an entire frozen Mr. Nutty Bunny. Meh, given the season, still nothing wacko there.
The problem is that I am getting old and my body is starting to hate me in ways I never dreamed possible. And I am still naive enough to think I can outsmart my body. I topped off the evening's gastronomic expedition with a glass of milk, a couple Tylenol and some Tums, and stumbled off to bed willing positive thoughts and energy through my brain and body.
Alarm goes off 6:45am. Reset. 7:00am. Reset. 7:20am.
* THANK YOU BRAIN AND BODY *
I care for 4 toddlers in my home, 9 hours a day, 5 days a week.
And yet I love my job.
After working in the "real world" and trying to balance work, a husband, 2 pre-teen daughters, housework, friends, and my own insignificant needs, I learned that I hate working in the real world.
I love my home. I love being in my home. I love being the one who picks our girls up after school, or who rushes to school to pick them up when they are hurt or really sick. I love that *I* am caring for them.
I love opening my home to my daycare kids. I love watching them take their first wobbly steps, learn new words, the whole shebang.
That being said, there are those unusually challenging days where I'm questioning my career choice, or at least my ability to make it through the day.
Today was one of 'em:
Toddlers would make awesome politicians, because they tell you what they know you want to hear (or at least smile sweetly and nod enthusiastically) and then proceed to do whatever the hell they want after.
Pre-teen girls are like volcanoes. Calm on the outside, yet on the verge of complete (emotional) eruption at any moment.
Dogs make great family pets. Some are indifferent to doorbells, mailmen, garbage trucks, and ducks who are looking to nest on your front lawn. Some never know when to shut the hell up.
Phones never ring when you want them to, and never stop when you don't.
Non-torrential rain only occurs during snack/lunch/naptime.
The people who design the school drop off/pick up lanes have
(a) never gone to school,
(b) never learned to drive,
(c) never had children,
(d) all of the above.
It's days like this when hubby's also had a day like this and would love to be picked up from work rather than endure a crowded smelly ride home on the Loser Cruiser (aka Bus).
I pick up our oldest from her playdate (GAH I hate that term), and drive downtown through the rain to pickup Lawr. I realize I can't wait to see my hubby, my rock, my soulmate. One look at me and he says the magical words every hungover, frustrated, self employed, emotionally exhausted wife and mom wants to hear:
"Let's go out for dinner tonight."
Sorry, sweet merciful death...you lose again ;P